Not Feeling The Christmas Spirit

Not Feeling The Christmas Spirit

As everyone is preparing for Christmas and getting excited for the big day, I’m just not feeling it. I am feeling very down, deflated and so fed up. I don’t know why I am feeling like this except i hate winter and all that comes with it the dreary days, the dark nights. I am very much a sun person.

I have these thoughts and sometimes I feel that the world will be a better place without me, I have really dark days and have been through severe depression. The thoughts do go away but they still rear their ugly head at times. I am finding it hard to cope with everything that life is throwing at me. The countless appointments, meetings, etc. I know its for the good of the kids and that it is one of the down sides to having children with additional needs but sometimes I just want my life back. I don’t want to be a slave to the diary for this and that appointment. I want to be able to go and do what I want but this isn’t to be.

So right at this minute I am not into the Christmas spirit its all gone. I would never take the magic away for the kids, but to me its just not there. I am fed up with the constant bickering amongst the kids, the fact yet again they have trashed their room, through having a meltdown. Zak constantly screaming for hours on end. Its all so demanding .

So for the I am just not feeling the Christmas spirit this year, but I don’t really know what to do to get it back either.

About wendy hirst

I am a X-box gamer, film lover , blogger, reviewer, a stroke survivor, loves tea and camping. Mum to 4, 3 of whom have autism.

12 comments

  1. Really sorry to hear you’re feeling that way. I know the way all those endless appointments wear you down but please go easy on yourself – its ok to not feel the Christmas spirit! Hang on in there and I hope you have just one or two moments when something feels good for you today. A friend of mine goes and stares at a bird when she feels overwhelmed, just totally concentrates on every tiny details of it for a bit – she got the idea from a psychologist & swears it makes you feel calmer & gives the brain a break from dark thoughts

  2. Deb at aspieinthefamily

    Sorry to hear you’re feeling so low. I know what you mean about not having the festive spirit; I’m feeling the same and I don’t know how to get it back either. Maybe when christmas has passed and things calm down, you can find some time for yourself.

  3. I’m there with you on the teetering edge…. constant worries re children, money, debt and the rest of the family.
    Hugs all the way Wendyxxx

  4. Sorry you feeling so down. Things will improve for you. I promise. Sometimes xmas seems to exacerbate any negative feelings we might have been feeling. It can be a very stressful time. Hope you feel better soon. You know where I am if you need a chat. x

  5. Wendy i feel the same normally i am so excited about christmas but not this year it doesn’t help that last christmas my dad was ill and then we found out about his lung cancer and now we are just waiting for another appointment from the hospital to tell us that its still there and worse than it ever was. Add that to the problems that Emily has i just want to run away and hide. My blog on Thursday said it all really.
    But i hope that you get the christmas spirit and that you get a little time to relax.

  6. I feel exactly the same so low about money, job a take all sorts happened this year and just feel like once something good happens and i think all going to be ok bam something else rubbish happens again just feel stuck. Glad to know it not just me though it helps take care everyone and i hope we sort it all out x x x x

    • Thank you for your comment.

      I am so sorry that you are having an awful time. I hope that things improve for us both very soon , take care xxxx

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